Ladybugs

Last night after I posted about my struggle of strength I was listening to some music on my computer. The Boys of Fall, Stuck on You, and 2 Steven Curtis Chapman songs from his eariler days. I also was reading though all my past blogs, and remembering the fun times that had occured during the last year with my friends at school.

During this same time, I was feling a lot better but when a friend texted me saying everything would work out ok I knew I could have the strength to do whatever I chose. At that point those tears that had been bottled up inside me fell, and listening to SCC there was a sense if relief inside me.

Deciding the night had become an enventful one, and the Tigers game was now over I decided to call it a  night and pop in some Gilmore Girls to wind down the night.

Just as I was turning off the lamp in the family room, my eyes went to a little ladybug that clung onto the side of the lamp. I didn't think much about it at the time and walked toward the staircase when I was stopped. That ladybug was a sign. A sign from above that everything was ok.

Why does a ladybug say that to me? The ladybug is special for the Chapman's, after Maria became whole in 2008. Since then I have listened to SCC music, read Mary Beth's book this last week, followed their blogs, and recently feel in love with their sons' band Caleb. I'm dying to get to a concert in October to meet them and every which way I am seeing signs.

But back to the ladybug.

Here's an excerpt from Mary Beth Chapman's blog about the meaning of Ladybugs in Maria's life.

"All along, I could tell many stories...we have seen ladybugs at certain times. Maria loved ladybugs! When we pick out her spot for her shell to be buried, we found a ladybug there. Just about every time we go, a ladybug is there. There are a ton of stories about ladybugs. Maria's sheets in her room were even ladybugs! At any rate.....right after the balloons were released and the kids were squealing with excitement, I heard Stevey Joy yell....hey look! As I looked down, a ladybug was crawling up her hand! It crawled to the top of her finger and flew away, just like the balloons! "
http://chapmanchannel.typepad.com/marybeth/2009/05/stevey-joys-class-remembers-mariaand-the-bread-combs-came.html

So as I stopped and thought about what that little ladybug on my lamp meant, I thought of Maria. Listening to her dad and brothers' music that night and looking for a sign I saw it. That little lady bug was a sign from above that everything really was going to be ok.

I looked for the ladybug again this  morning and as I was walking down the stairs it was above me on the wall. I just had to smile.
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So here's to everything being ok.

Until then Choose to SEE life all around you!